So I’m chilling, rolling around, going on Facebook and generally just being a lazy bum when I realise that I haven’t written my post for today. You know though, I know that God did it that way because He wanted to give me another reason to be grateful.
I just finished a long talk with a dear friend of mine and wow! I am fired up, excited, motivated, challenged…gimme a word and I’m it! Can I say how grateful I am for a God who knows what you need when you need it? My friend Switch is on fire for God…she’s a militant (not literally o!) she lives life with all of her heart and she has carried that fire and passion into her relationship with God. Listening to her today talking about how favoured, how blessed, how grateful she is…well, my own iron started to sharpen and before you know it, we were both just rejoicing and exclaiming over how good God has been to us.
Then, can I also say how grateful again I am for friends that can celebrate you? I spoke to 2 friends today and both of them were probably more excited than I was over the news that I was sharing with them. Isn’t it awesome to have people like that? May God help me to continue to be as passionate and excited for my friends’ successes as these dear friends were for mine.
Another reason this phone call excited me, when God brings someone into your present that knows how you were in the past and who can share with you all the different wonderful things that God has done in your life. As we talked about our growth and journeys, it was wonderful to be able to chart my progress with someone who knew me before and who would know exactly what I am talking about when I talk about the different changes that have happened and are happening.
Final reason this call was a big deal. Just before she called, I was feeling a bit down. I thought about some mistakes I had made and was beating myself up for them. I tend to do that a lot – God is working on my tendency to self-judge and is teaching me how to develop the same amnesia He has about my sins but I am occasionally a slow learner with some of this stuff. So anyway, I was grieving a bit, worrying a bit and generally not being productive with these emotions i.e. handing them over to God, trusting His grace and asking for an opportunity to make things right if necessary. Then my friend called and she mentioned a mistake she made, and how she prayed a simple prayer and left it, and how God fixed it. And a light bulb went on in my head; it was exactly what I needed to be reminded of.
I am grateful for that call and for all the things that God used it to teach me. I am grateful for a God that always provides opportunities to help me to be better. I am grateful for the opportunity to be excited about my relationship with Him – not logical or reasoned or rational, but unapologetically, wholeheartedly and overwhelmingly crazy about Him; the way He is about me.